Monthly Archives: July 2017

Tea break for a foggy brain.

I have never been the one to like Sundays. I will blame it on being a morning person. Sundays mean sleeping in, having a huge breakfast and relaxing. I doubt that I know how to relax…at least for most of the time. I get up early, get going with my plans for the day. Not that I require a fully planned day but just because if I am not constantly busy, I just do not know what to do. I hope some of you relate… or else I am a freak (I don’t really mind).

Lately, my daily flow has been a little hard on me (It’s been interrupted…Do you think I have OCD?). Life happens. Lately, it has been hard on the people around me. I have found myself in the ER, being woken up at 3 a.m., when one of the closest people to me was scared as anything. My papa went through a small surgery. I do not know if I perfectly did what a daughter should do. Clearly, I do not do well with these situations. I am reminded of how fragile life is. Am I being supportive enough, Am I doing what am I supposed to? What do you do in these situations?

I lost my grandfather last year. I could not physically attend the funeral. Please, no pity. I hate myself for it and that is okay too.  I do not like to be reminded of death. I am just feeling tense today, let me see if pouring it out on a word document will help. Continue reading

Interview with a Buddhist

Upon participating in a religious studies course in my university, I had the privilege to interview a Buddhist. I find all religions fascinating. As I talk with people of other religions, it makes me realize how most religions have similar fundamentals. Buddhism was the one religion I struggled the most to understand. This pushed me to meet my  my interviewee in the Walnut Grove Community Centre library and ask her all the questions I have (and you might have too). My interviewee is a married Chinese woman between the ages of 30 and 40. She is a firm believer in Buddhism.

IMPORTANT: This interview had been submitted to Trinity Western University and was graded before the online feature. (It is written and submitted for grading purposes by Hazal Senkoyuncu on June 9th, 2017.)

  • Were you brought up in this religion? What led you to the beliefs you are now practicing?

I was not brought up as a Buddhist. I grew up in a family that had no religious belief. While I searched for meaning of life and the ways to improve myself, I studied Christianity, Islam, Falungong, Buddhism and many other religions. I found that Buddhism provides the most profound and reasonable explanations to the world and our life experiences. However, I should mention that Chinese culture and local belief system had an influence on me. 1000 years of Chinese culture is made up of Daoism, Confucianism and Buddhism as well as many other influences. Even though I was not religious, the belief systems within the culture had an impact on me. I visited Christian churches many times but did not feel the cultural closeness I receive from a Buddhist temple.

  • What is your denomination? Can you explain its significance?

I practice Vajrayana Buddhism which originates from Tibet. Its difference from Mahayana and other denominations is the way we practice prayer. You throw yourself to the floor and you search to prostrate. This is a way to cleanse one’s self from bad karma. Moreover, we follow a specific teacher. Our lineage is never discontinued and come linear from Buddha. Therefore, our teacher will teach the same teachings of Buddha, and we can trust them.

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Disclaimer: This post will be my best attempt at explaining this event without being biased. None of the text written below is meant to reflect political views.



I was sitting in our living room in Turkey, checking my phone and sipping my cup of steamy tea. I was home for a 2-month summer break from university. Suddenly I saw my ‘WhatsApp’ (online texting app) group receiving multiple messages, telling me to- TURN ON MY TV.

“Breaking News: Loaded tanks are driving around in the roads of Istanbul.

Horror as jets open fire.

Military took over TRT state television building.

Military forcefully aired a declaration regarding their takeover.

Turkish Grand National Assembly is surrounded by the military.

Government announced State of Emergency.”

First thoughts were that the military themselves attempted this coup and many believed they would not hurt anyone. As a few hours passed second thoughts were whether this was planned by the government itself. The government declared ‘state of emergency’ and I was terrified about the likelihood of not being able to see my relatives and friends and, not being able to get out of my house for weeks. Lastly, the story was carefully closed by it appearing to be planned by the organization ‘FETO’. Erdogan stopped the coup by calling out people to fight with the military (via FaceTime!). The day ended as I fell asleep in front of the TV a little after midnight, like half of the nation. The rest were out on the streets with their lives in danger. One thing to be sure- All were confused.



The Turkish government claims that the coup was planned by FETO (Gulenist Terror Organisation) which was led by Fethullah Gulen. Gulen was a conservative whom influenced many people (especially poor families) in Turkey through education. He gave students places to eat and stay, provided them with scholarships, sent many students abroad for greater education and conclusively, raised them up to serve his purposes. Gulen has many schools all over the world. Moreover, he owned hospitals, newspaper, media companies, private and public associations that were present in Turkish people’s lives (almost all are publicly closed or re-owned by the government now).

However, let’s note a selection of Gulen’s statements as published on Telegraph: “Mr Gulen said on Sunday he would obey any extradition ruling from the United States. He has insisted that he had nothing to do with the uprising and suggested that Mr Erdogan could have staged the attack himself in order to legitimise a fresh crackdown on the judiciary and military” (2016). Continue reading

Sitting still.

Good morning.

As I sit down here, finishing up with my second bowl of cereal, I have to be honest, I am not sure where this post is going. I might be mocking myself a little today. I am feeling somewhat blue but nothing unfixable. Let me try to explain without giving out much detail. Past week has been… lazy nights, lazy mornings, showing some love to the house I am in, kitchen kitchen kitchen, yummy smells, extremely hot weather, hands together and so much love that I felt full in my heart.

I am grateful. I wait for this kind of time every year for it to last only a few days. Some of you might relate. Continue reading